Life is a Focus

2011-02-13T10:34:00.001+08:00

OH WOW. ITS 2011, February the 13th

Currently here !

Once I'm done with "Os" I'll perpetually organize my sites again.

lucky

2010-12-01T10:36:00.002+08:00

In fact, I owe you a big THANK YOU <3

2010-10-28T10:54:00.001+08:00

Changed my Tumblr's web name again. Some people is really, a pain in the arse.

2010-10-28T10:52:00.001+08:00

and i thought, i have forgotten my blogger's password!

2010-10-11T14:25:00.001+08:00

Most of the time, I'll be here alright.

Tumblr XD

Stop whining "she changed link again"

Don't be a hypocrite okay? (:

Freedom

2010-10-11T13:58:00.000+08:00

As promised. I'm back for blogger after "N" Levels. Hell, today marks the official last day for N level-ers. Right? :O Anyways, I'm much active on tumblr + twitter than anything else! So yuh, you ought to know where I'll be XD

its been great

2010-05-01T16:20:00.003+08:00

Dear blogger, thanks for being a good friend since 2008 (:

i love you a lot. i know I've burdened you enough.

i'm leaving you for Tumblr

i'll come back to you after N Levels.
you hold too much memories in my life.

please keep my memories and never throw them away.

Goodbye.

emmm-oh-vee-ee-oh-ann.

2010-05-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

You said you didn't want to see me get hurt,

so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?

I wish I had the guts to walk away
and forget about what we had.
But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me,
and I guess that's what hurts the most.

I thought I'd forget you, but I guess I forgot to.

Every few nights or so you pop into my dreams,
I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me.

Moving on is simple,
it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult

Never be sad for what is over,
just be glad that it was once yours.

If someone you love hurts you cry a river,
build a bridge, and get over it.

You will know that you love someone
when you want him/her to be happy.
Even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.

but now, its on the contrary

2010-05-01T15:35:00.001+08:00

" ask me how many times I've been hurt by you, I'll ask you to count the stars in the sky, that's the number of times I've been hurt "

a game show love connection

2010-04-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

F&N PRACTICAL EXAM WAS,

BOOMXZS.

2010-04-29T16:01:00.003+08:00

I MISS THIS LITTLE GIRL D;
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On random note, i saw Berry & Syakir @ Hg Pt Macdonald today :O
its been a lonnnnnng time yo! :D
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AND OH, abigail's recipe was a FAILLLLURE @ MacD. disgusting eh!
:P
Goodbye.

a picture paints a thousand words

2010-04-27T16:23:00.001+08:00

was browsing through Facebook's picturexzx, then i found ,

these pictures draws my attention. not because of the people inside, its because of the events that took place when the picture was taken.

how i miss the third one very, very much.

Mother Tongue paper today, flunked it like crazy.

I saw myself trying real hard to understand the cloze passage by reading it over and over again.

but i didn't see myself filling in good words. instead, i filled the blanks with random words.

kay, don't try this on your exam papers people. English tomorrow.

Good luck and all the best people.

Someone used to be the one telling me,

Good Luck For Your Malay Today (:

like i said, USED TO BE.

hey, soul sista!

2010-04-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

For some reasons, i personally feel that this song is meaningful.

appreciation

2010-04-24T19:32:00.002+08:00

In 4A1, God blessed me with this two <3

Suhailah & Liyana.

friendship

2010-04-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

and so, i love my CCA.

despite the many conflicts and misunderstandings that occured.

i'm happy, that i have friends like Samantha, Jiayan, Valerie, Weifang, Emelynn, Melissa, Finn and my bestea, Liyana.

after meeting today, the "last" one with the sec 4E's, i admit, we may have came from different streams, class and different months of birthdays, but it was because of Girl Guides, our friendship were held firmly and strongly within the four solid years. i am going to miss the mentioned names above. Really.

Together We Can Make A Difference.

TODAY WAS, nice.

i just wanna say, i realize what are true friends, today.

Goodbye.

On random note,

Huda Raais. BE STRONG!

am very much pressurized.

2010-04-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

i strongly believe, everybody is feeling this way, for

MID-YEAR EXAMS.

GOD. exams pressure.

i'm like currently rushing through my F&N coursework CAREFULLY.

like really luh please. i wouldn't want to fail right? tsk. And,

omg. i seriously can imagine whats' my life gonna be on the 29th April.

its my PRACTICAL EXAM yo!

YES. the real, original one! :/ i was doing the planning, thats' why i said i'll die.

BUT, be positive Hayati! Own the kitchen! ;D

and, today? was ___ i just don't have an adjective to describe, CAUSE MS LOH ISN'T PRESENT!

she has not been in school since Monday. i miss her homeworks. :D

(THAT WAS REAL)

So yar, i haven't been posting much right? Sorry yaw.

i can't find time to go through blogger. at times when i visit facebook, its would be via my phone ! :D

I LOVE SOCIAL STUDIES.

Goodbye.

all i ever wanted was a simple way to get over you

2010-04-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

THIS is today, Bowen's 28th Speech Day.

To be honest, last year's one was so much more FUN & HAPPIER. this year's was like, it didnt even hyped me up. really. its not because of which CCA taking or whatsoever, its just the atmosphere.

something doesn't feel right for me :/

and oh,

"Truth about girls; it doesn't matter who dumped who or why. Whenever we see an ex with another girl, it always bothers us. Not because we're not over you, but because we know that we used to be that girl." - Unknown.

THIS. was during Sports Day on 14th April.

this was the most awesome-st day ever! cause it was

screaming day for me ! (:

yuh, i DID made my voice worst. because i feel like it.

really. AND! many things happened lately.

On random note, time has seduced me to study and my feelings for blogging has faded.

till come back here again.
my definition of friends aren't YOU. YOU are my definition of slut.

and, if you think you're better than others, then why the fuck are you just talking big shits about it?

why not do it? stupid girl. seeing your bitch face today made my day went, WTF. thanks uh.

*even my own my best friend can't stand her :/
God, i'm so ashamed to call her my F.R.I.E.N.D
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Goodbye.

moving on

2010-04-15T20:41:00.000+08:00

Every time I see him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I am painfully aware that I am not over him and he is over me.
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Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings.
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This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...
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Time and time again, I forgave you. I've forgiven you for things that I swore to myself I'd never forgive someone for... and here you are, still hurting me, and I still forgave you..
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The higher you build the walls around your heart, the harder you fall when someone tears them down.
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I'm mad at myself for crying, I don't even remember the reason but the tears keep flowing and they just wont stop I'm supposed to be strong but everything's so wrong.
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I never regretted telling you I liked you, I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me.
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Don't hate me. Don't regret me. Don't even forget me.
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REALLY.
I
WANT
TO
MOVE
ON!

2010-04-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

I HATE LIFE THE WAY IT IS RIGHT NOW.

EVERYTHING IS TURNING UPSIDE DOWN.

NEVERMIND, its a challenge from God.

i'll accept it willingly.

i cannot take the blow

2010-04-12T19:14:00.001+08:00

for yesterday,

Happy sweet 16th Birthday Suhailah ;D

from her statuses in facebook, i can predict that she had a nice day.
plus, it was her one year anniversary with rafi! :D SWEET RIGHT?! VERY MUCH <3
i love the two people!

today, a lot of things happened.

i was a really hyper kid today in school.

ask liyana and suhailah, i was teasing everyone i could.

but when i reached home, my mood crashed.

on the bright side, weijie and nicholas gave me a good scolding.

i deserve it. it was my fault. i shouldn't have started all this shit.

i'm disappointed in myself. totally.

that was a nice one from nicholas.

two words

I REGRETTED.

my heart sank.

2010-04-09T21:17:00.002+08:00

i feel so good not touching the computer for three days.

homeworkxzs, i could have done more without the late phone calls.

speech day rehearsals is, forward-looking.

i always look forward to it. i'm sorry to my blog readerzs that i seldom update this thing.

its boring and dead. will revive them A.S.A.P :/

to be honest, i really miss the good old times.

see people? Suffer now, enjoy later (:

oh right! i AM still suffering.

Goodbye.

this is life

2010-04-05T18:52:00.001+08:00

YAY. its monday.

MOANDAY. totally.

MIRACULOUSLY, there was no homework given !

by ms loh? NOPE. mr see? NOPE.

OH. amazing right?! BUT, there is one from ms teo :/

lately i've been SO, lazy to update. like, seriously luhxs.

i don't know is it me whose just tired, or i have simply neglected my blog.

kay, i feel bad.

I MISS HUDA RAAIS <3 aww, haven't seen her since i don't know when.

Stay strong girl !

and, i found out khairiah was sick! hoho, so am i! :/

Get Well Soon Boyfriend ;D

on random note, Emily Chong Kai En is a good friend (:

Goodbye

Jessica. Minho ! My favourites.

2010-04-03T12:52:00.000+08:00

if faj & liyana were to see this they must be extremely suprised.

CUTE.

2010-04-03T12:00:00.001+08:00

Never Let You Go - Justin Bieber

good friday

2010-04-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

today is Friday. which

makes me feel, "ITS SATURDAY!"

but, nyahahaha. NO. its STILL friday.

a Good friday. done describing.

and guess what? i went out with Emily.C today ;D

<3 while, Abigail & Liyana headed down to parkway for their idk what stuffs.

hohoho, coincidently, we needed to find some place which has guitar picks as an item as a product in the shop.

not knowing who to call, i called Jonathan Chu ! ;D Coincidently, he was heading to a guitar shop too!
Since Emily & myself were both road-noob, we tagged along with Jay Chuuu.

hohoh, overall it was FUN. right emily? hahahsxz, ;D and,

GEE. i got myself a white guitar pick. XD

its beautiful, okay? cause its WHITE.

and, i'm waiting for the right time to buy myself a white guitar, perhaps i'll get Jay chu to help me (:

We'll go out again someday E & J (:

Goodbye.

run devil devil run run

2010-04-02T12:37:00.000+08:00

i'll be back,

"Love like you never knew hatred"

vanilla twilight.

2010-03-27T23:00:00.007+08:00

headed to Boys' Brigade's POP.
fun. with Emelynn, WeiFang & Melissa.
camwhore too much.
that i'm too tired to upload. soon kay?
i know, i've got a date with Emily, Danish, Veeviyan & Jessie ;D
TOMORROW !
goodnight lovers.

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2010-03-27T15:45:00.000+08:00

i finally understood why Suhailah & Liyana

WENT CRAZY OVER KATY PERRY.

i'll never be the same, if we meet again.

its my biggest wish

2010-03-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

heart-shaped gummies.

I WANTTTTTTTTT ;D

oh mummy. please let me out tomorrow & sunday. i'm dying for

laughters & not stresses.

i post random stuffs here.

Tumblr

which will also means, i might neglect

Blogger.

but most of the time i would be

Facebook & Tweeter & CELLPHONE ;D

hahahas, i find it cool.

anywayxszxs, today's activities was tiring. i do not know why,

i've never loved Rivers & Coasts in Geog.

like really, perhaps it was my "everytime-use-phone-in-class"

habit last year, hur.

i regretted. so people? reduce the usage of handphone in class, it distracts you

SERIOUSLY.

i shall admit, during foot drills today, i took my dear sec1s, they

made me laugh instead of being fierce & scary.

then my dear sec2s, i was super random with them.

HOHOHO ;D

love them all.

i'd say, juniors made my day better ^.^

THEN, after guides headed to hg point with Farah & Clarice.

bumped into Danish & Zul.

sat together, I HAD GREAT LAUGHS.

i was happy. and i'm proud of it.

IF one day, i decided to delete my blog, i'll cry the next few days.

CAUSE I KEEP MANY MEMORIES HERE.

so, i won't have the heart to.

mummy. do let me out kay? i need some laughs.

Goodbye.

Specially to March babies.

Happy 16th Birthday Sharil- 1st March

Happy 16th Birthday Mariani- 3rd March

Happy 16th Birthday Melissa Long- 9th March

Happy 17th Birthday Huda Raais- 24th March

Happy 16th Birthday Jun An- 24th March

Happy 15th Birthday Sonjula-25th March

Happy 17th Birthday RouHui- 26th March

Happy 13th Birthday Muhd Shafiq(twinny's brother)-26th March

thirstdayyyyyyyyyy, really thirsty

2010-03-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

hours before meet the parent session two weeks ago.

blink, blink & blink.

OMG. its friday tomorrow :O

very fast right? ohmygod.

kay, i think today is a very noisy day.

with the big hu-ha-hu-ha, with the rains and every noises that you could possibly hear today.

YAH. school was like usual today, it rained again today.

but in the afternoon.

hohoho, very coldXZSXS. but, I LOIKEEEE ;D

hehehe. sports heat was cancelled, i went AWWW. cause i was

absofcukinglutely looking forward to see a few of my friends RUNNNNNNN.

sad, but nevermind. emily, jessie & twinny was crazy. like seriously.

liyana told me they were talking about my blog during A Maths class. GOSH.

you people nothing better to do is it? i seriously don't understand why luhxzs,

they wanted to read my blog via nicholas's iPhone(Y)

they were AWW-ing at little tiara !

HAHAH, i aww-ed more when i camwhore with her XD

headed homee after that, saw this cute little meenie-weeniy-not so tiny cat on top of the ledge.

if you're blind thennnnnnnnn,

ZOOM IN !

hehehe,

Goodbye.

PS; the cat is white, thats why i snapped XD

you know you've ruined everything. thanks bitch.

2010-03-24T20:03:00.002+08:00

That cheerful girl you used to know last year,

Hello lovebirdxzs,its wednesday today,

yuh, it rained again today! first period was already a nightmare.

got scolded from cikgu juriah, for not completing karangan & surat rasmi. like,

oh damn it.

lessons were like usual, i'd say!

and, HAHHAHAHAH. during recess was @#$%^&*()$%^&*(

embarrassed myself in front of THAT cute boy!

i don't have feelings for him uh, but lately, i've been bumping into him quite a number of times.

AND, i personally think that hes' AWESOMELY born to be adorable!

HEHEHE. cheeky much? oh very! don't cha know me? ;D

hehe, kay enough about him

AGAIN. dianah was absent. get well soon babe, and my dear fajrina too ^^

i KNOW, i've got tons of homework i needa do, so i'm gonna them, i will, i will .

LATER. got the dates for almost all the N Level papers, i'll be exam free this year after

8th October, i've been thinking.

i believe i won't feel a single bit excited during fasting month, as well as the raya day itself.

cause WE know its Major Exam.

on random note, i love panda bearxzxzs ;D

aren't they? Black & White.

awesome.

Goodbye

friends, then foe.

2010-03-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

hello beloved humanxzs,

a million thingxzs happened today, i'll try to catogarize them.

the good ones, there was no assembly held in the hall.

1.i tried to complete as much research during f&n.

2.Carissa would make a good sports lecturer.

3.Jessica, Suhailah & Carissa were great runnerxzs !

4.After four years i took part in sportsday event, BUT........

5. for the first time ever going out with Emily ! (:

the not so good ones.

1.it rained so heavily this morning causing the warmth to rise.

2.i did my maths homework neatly & tidily as i did but forget to bring ending me up to REDO the whole thing.

3.......failed to enter the finals for Sports Day.

4. Dianah not sitting next to me during maths lesson due to band rehearsals.

5.Friends back then, Foe now.

so yar, i guess those who were by my side knows what i'm talking about.

To Suhailah,

your fall made me scared for that moment. seriously! if you were to ever fall like that again, warn rafi, at least got support ! you did great by the way babe. don't think & curse negatively again okays? remember you said no one is to be blamed? so stop blaming yourself. i'm at fault too.

Have A Good Rest & Take Good Care Of Yourself.

Don't absent yourself tomorroww!!! i didnt, so can't you!

To Carissa,

you make a good sports lecturer. Cheer up kay? And, besides jesslyn, you're one of the fittest girl in A1. so stop saying you are unfit to run!

Have A Good Rest & Take Good Care Of Yourself.

kay, i believe you people must be wondering right,

Once friends, now foe.

wait, let me have a good laugh first.

HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA-HA.

you sense my sarcasm didn't you.

one phrase, I WISH ALL THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN.

more than frustration

2010-03-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

i was surrounded by KOREAN freakxzs, AND I STILL AM SURROUNDED.

guess what? i went to sch, did everything, went ACP, went home & did the usual then visited Facebook and got my blood boiling.

reena, suhailah & twin, if you're reading this, i believe you'll understand wtf i'm talking about yo.

its frustrating.

seriously. !@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()+__+

overall today was, fine. i'd say.

watched some EERIE video mr farid showed.

I LOVE THE EYE BURSTING PART. GOD. it felt like a movie.

kay, but yeah, its scary. death by electrocution.

TONS & TONS OF HOMEWORK.

serve me right, never do some more luhxzs during holidays.

heats 1 tomrrow, felt like absenting myself :/

Goodbye!

beyond your wildest imagination

2010-03-21T13:13:00.000+08:00

i haven't moved on, have i?

its monday tomorrow, ACP starting already.

don't expect me to update this thingy like i used too.

Goodbye

i miss my GE-EYEEE-AYEE-ANDDD-TTTTEEEE !

2010-03-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

for the past few dayxzxs, i've been AWAY, to third aunt's house.

GOD.

so manyyyyyyy thingxs happened. like seriously, mostly it fun, cause got my little tiara ;D

sleeping with her is torturing, she very naughty! GAH!

in ibu's house, i bake, babysit, cooked, cleaned & helped ibu create a Facebook profile.

HOHOHO. damn cute. kay, yuh, it feels great to be home again cause the coldness from the 21st storey is really SOMETHING compared to 11th storey.

brrrrrr.

during these days were also the days i neglected my chunk & tons of homeworkxzsxs. damn it.

today & tomorrow, i'll be a good girl, also a busy bee completing them all!

HOHO.

yesterday was one of the few days which i think made me feel, NO FEELING.

headed to town with ibu & family. ESPLANADE was one of them, oh my god.

like seriously, they brought TOO much memories. anywayxzsxs, on the brighter side, it was fun though.

COLD.COLD.COLD ;D

kay, i never fail to miss this activity everytime i'm with little tiara

hah, kay i love this picture thats why its bigger than the otherxzxs.

kay, last friday, had family bbq, so yar. picturexzs again.

actually, there are many more, my aunt up there? the one in black tee shirt.

she sent me only these.

TSK.

well, kay, i love my cousins after that reunion. everybody has grown up :O

Goodbye!

i found myself in wonderland

2010-03-17T11:48:00.001+08:00

You ought to catch this movie! i caught it already! ^.^

kay, Johnny Depp <3 this song & m.v made me love avril lavigne more.

like seriously, (:

"When the world's crashing down When I fall and hit the ground I will turn myself around Don't you try to stop me I, and I won't cry"

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Might be going to third aunts' house later.
i dread travelling alone . but i have to :O

on random note;
i gotta feeling i'm a happy kiddo today ^.^
Goodbye!

i've said my piece

2010-03-16T11:36:00.001+08:00

hello humanxzsx ;D

i'm back! hohoho. i know you miss my posts :P

okayxzs, pictures above? taken on 13.03.10 Public Performance @ One Marina Boulevard.

Headed to that place with Reena. Well, to be honest, she made me wake up. nice sharing stories with her, humorous ones at that. (:

overall the performance were awesome ! :D

thennn, on sunday, headed down to suntec for the IT show with james, danish & khairil.

James bought his mp4. like finally. then headed to BK cause danish was hungryyy, then slacked at kovan bowling. then pool! hahas, pool is the next thing for me. must learn XD

then yesterday? headed to hg point with little tiara for brunch! (:

okayxzs, today? no plaxnzs.

Goodbye.

negative perspective : you're a total slut whom i see as a despo.

positive perspective: you're an ex-boyfriend deprived.

till this goes on, i know things between us will never work.

2010-03-09T13:31:00.000+08:00

-AWAY-
I'll BE BACK WHEN MY COMPUTER & HANDPHONE IS BACK IN MY ARMS.

Sorry peepo !

call it a bad day

2010-02-27T19:03:00.003+08:00

first and foremost, i would like to confess something i've done that has made me feel so guilty towards myself and my beloved boyfriend, JOY-GM730 :[

I DROPPED MY PHONE INSIDE THE FCUKING TOILET BOWL AND HAD TO LIE TO MUMMY THAT I WET MY HAND WHEN IT AUTO RESTARTED.

okays. i feel so, GUILTY.

im overwhelmed by nothing but sadness. seriously, breaking up is number two apart from your beloved item being DEAD :(

omg. i seriously wanted to cry !

careless.

i am not gonna story telling to you people my life for the past few missing days and how the hell i managed to blog today.

i know my commont test results is gone, gone gone. cause i know i could have studied better & performed well. but on the contrary. i know i've completed my cip for this year.

i know i'm utterly in myself right now. other than that, please stop annoying me further my dear friends/readers.

okayxsz, i'm off, to de-stress myself. currently using viewty. it feels awkward,

i lost touch & most importantly, that thing brought me a million & one memories. and, the terrible thing that is happening now is that, I DIDNT SAVE MY CONTACTS IN MY SIM CARD. smart.

so people, if you intend to text me, PLEASE, im begging you, state your name.

thanks, Goodbye.

and lastly, i know i'm going crazy soon.

i like you

2010-02-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

today, i assume its a HEAD-ACHE day for me :/

CRAP. geography & malay was, say goodbye.

maths, physics & chemistry tomorrow.

omg, goodluck bumbumxsz :D

i felt, so !@#$%^&*( at first, but when i think again,

nah! not worth.

computer is gonna be sent for REEEEpaired.

hariz, if this thing still crashes after it returns from hospital,

i'll kill this thing in front of you! :P

okayxszxs, Goodbye earthlings. see you when the computer comes back.

don't miss me uh, can find me @ Facebook.

will update there via PHONE.

at least now,

i find my LG JOY placed in a good use ;D

2010-02-21T13:01:00.000+08:00

i may be your biggest fan, but i would not follow you until you love me,

by the time i do, i've got no feelings for you.

it feels GREAT not thinking about anything :]

lifes' GREAT. lately, i just LOVE it.

had, this on friday during Girl Guides.

this thing taste awesome (:

then saturday, had Thinking Day celebrations @ the indoor stadium with the ladies in blue.

then downed to compass point with sam, melissa & val.

then headed to ibu's house, ALONE.

how dumb can i be getting lost even inside an lrt.

made a round back to the same station.

okays, so yuh ! reached ibu's house, got changed then entertained little

tiara ;D

still many other pictures, will upload them some time soon.

oh well, i told her i won't be overnight-ing.

she frowned :(

but i told her, someday i'll come again.

yes i will come again! :D by a different route.

yuh, so today? study date. geography & malay papers tomorrow.

Goodluck Dodo birdsxzs!

16th February ; Happy 16th Birthday Hidayah ;D
17th February ; Happy 17th Birthday Fareez ;D

20th February ; Happy 13th Birthday Joshua ;D

21st Febrruary ; Happy 17th Birthday Shairazi ;D

oh how crappy.

2010-02-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

\m/

many people's birthday passed, will list them down SOON.

its social studies & english common test tomorrow,

Good Luck People ;D

i <3 SS !

lifes' great, but it'll be greater if you study ! HEHE.

okayxzs, something random,

i've been leaving home 10 minutes before school gates get spanked by detention slips !

TSK TSK.

yes i know, my definition of late, last year was, 7.20am

this time, my definition of late is, 7.30am.

HOW AWESOME? NOT.

okayxzs, Goodbye.

oh well.

2010-02-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

lifes' great when you're stress free,

i felt that way today, but sadly, the stress came back when someone asked me about homework.

the happy part is i baked today! Strawberry Chocolate Cupcake !

it was successful ! spent like three hours standing, walking around the kitchen to and fro.

i miss tiara now :(

its' school tomorrow.

its' wednesday tomorrow.

i miss my close ones.

Goodbye.

i love nobody.

2010-02-15T11:40:00.000+08:00

YAY <3

this morning, i went to hg point with this little girl ;D

hehe, she was well-behaved !

HEHE. she accompanied me to ntuc, bought stuffs for baking, tomorrow ^^

then breakfast-ed at kfc, my god, the service was rather, sucky. well, blame macd for being packed!

anywaxyzs, had a peaceful & calm time with that little girl.

stress free for once(:

she'll be going home later :(

SAD CASE.

but its' alright, i can always go to third aunt's crib.

omg, i am getting drugged by Earthquake- Little Boots.

on random note, why must school starts on wednesday?

crap :O ! it makes the week looks short. no wait.

it is short.

then friday? its' common test already.

RAWR ! yesterday, i had a good talk with a friend, long time never talk to him already,

asking his opinion regarding some stuffs, and i was quite amazed that he had high hopes on me !

so happy yknw :D and, a good thing to know he is working at some place. heh.

will find a time to visit him soon.

for some reasons yesterday, i feel like i'm back to my usual self again !

not contradicting myself or whatever but i just feel like, neutral when i talked to him and he gave me the

one word reply, it feels like, "OMG. I'M USED TO IT AND I FEEL LIKE ITS POINTLESS"

so yuh, i DID feel down, but not so HEAVY. a few minutes later, i was smiling again while talking to another friend.

it really took me alot of time to RECOVER.

okayxs, heading to third aunts' later.

GOODBYE.

totally the hotstuff

2010-02-14T15:58:00.001+08:00

THIS GUY IS HOT. MY GOD.

i wish i had a boyfriend like him.

was surfing Facebook.

saw ella's status. immediately like it!

HAHAHA. like hello?

i just watched it yesterday and for God's sake this guy is HOT,

HAHAHA, okayxzs, star-stucked ;D

can i date Logan Lerman?

*winks winkszxsx.

Goodbye.

earthquake

2010-02-14T13:19:00.000+08:00

(L)

i love this one.

Every clap of thunder only makes me stronger on the inside.

Okayxzs, happy day today.

Happy Lunar New Year To My Chinese mates.

Happy Valentines Day to Everyone <3

i am spending valentines day alone today (Y) :(

Goodbye.

dance floor anthem!

2010-02-13T12:15:00.002+08:00

okayxz, i went missing for a few days right?

yuh, i did soul searching. a deep one. i got the answer and i've decided to keep it to myself.

i ever said, Everything Happened For A Reason. and now, i got that rule back in my life.

so, many huge things happened lately. HAH.

i'll start of with Thursday; 11thFebruary

Happy (belated) Fifteenth Birthday Farhanah ;D

nothing much happened? except that the class received their little individual photos.

i got mine!

honestly, i LOVE this year's compared to last years' ;D

have yet to take a sneak peek of my other friend's ! hehe.

then on friday? Most of them wore red ! i'm included !

before recess, kaixiang was OMG, so sweet la! he baked cupcakes with hanson & gang for the 4na girls.

how sweet. hahas, it was nice too! ^.^ thanks Dudexzs!

had the CNY celereabtions in the hall. after that, my hectic schedule begun.

headed to polyclinic with liyana, riding bus 72. then the nurse said the counter would be open @ 2pm.

so we waited for half an hour. then @ 2pm, the nurse told us the report would be done in an hours' time.

okay, NEVERMIND. then headed to GG headquarters. money? checked. namelist? checked.

then when i arrived at the shop, the NYONYA, made me wait for close to ten minutes, then

when i told her the details of what i wanted to buy, she SHOUTED at me and asked me for another piece of paper.

i went, WTF. ONE STUPID WASTED TRIP.

was damn fucked up then, so yar, headed back to polyclinic, WE WERE SO LUCKY.

the polyclinic almost closed. so then, it was 4.40pm.

headed home, got ready then headed down to mummy's office with granny,liyana, brother & cousin.

dinner-ed @ City Square Mall; Swensens. then shop-ed ! HOHO

mummy was in a good mood as to but me clothes,

HEH!

TODAY? yup, i'm going out.

and, My Yellow Carebear given by SoonLam has turned a year old!

see? how fast time flies.

okayxzs.

on random note,

i miss being a little girl cause valentines day did not exist in my life during those times.

its' time

2010-02-10T20:16:00.003+08:00

LISTEN.
it made me feel miserably sad.
its' time to really let go.
theres' no turning back now.
please stay happy and don't forget me.
i'll be happy if you are.
Goodbye.

i still haven't

2010-02-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

cats can love. i love cats.

but i'm afraid that they might bite me.

just like falling in love.

you like someone, you're afraid they might let you down forever.

for me, its' once bitten twice shy.

i can't seem to make a simple decision.

i clearly remembered asking someone,

If Nothing Lasts Forever, Would You Be My Nothing?

and,

i also clearly remembered he said, "yes i would"

perhaps i should take them as lies?

Goodbye.

i never knew if you never told

2010-02-08T21:33:00.001+08:00

okayxsz, where should i begin?

PE's gymnasium with teacher was awesome?

rolling is the thing :P

until that i got my left shoulder aching until now.

ouch

then maths? oh god, i felt so SLEEPY.

i was seriously trying hard to keep myself awake. although at some parts i know my mind logged off -.-

recess! like finally? Fajrina came back after one week of quarantine at home. cheeesh.

still, she has not fully recovered. Get well soon scandiee :D

geography! the lesson which i literally fell asleep :O

seriously, so boring. not interesting, so i didn't understood.

english was, also sleepy. NEWS-PEPPERXZSXS ! :(

then social studies? i just don't know why, i was fresh awake :D

i paid full attention ! (:

physics was fine, refraction rays. sth interesting !

then slacked in school until like, 5 plus near six.

headed home.

had a good talk with linana! perhaps i should give myself a chance too.

oh well, it all depends on where nature take me to,

Goodbye.

i want somebody like me.

2010-02-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

okays, i feel miserable,

number one: i DIDN'T camwhore with this little girl before she went home today :(

so yar, study date today.

kaixiang,danish,nicholas,hariz.

awesome bunch of guys!

nicholas learnt.

he learnt to play taiti.

HAHAHA. it brought me so much memories!

my first taiti lesson was with isaac, he taught me,

"2 SPADE IS THE BIGGEST CARD"

i remember that sentence until now. so yes, danish left at 5.30pm

then the other three followed me home!

hariz mended my computer. LIKE FINALLY?!

but yar, dude. im still unsure if this thing will crash again or not.

mummy and aunt baked.

i'll bring some snacks tomorrow ^.^

okayxs, off to bed now. i'm really tired.

had a good talk with Hariz. wow?

i feel contented that at least someone knows

exactly how i feel now.

okayxs, Goodbye!

and oh!

Happy Birthday to my 3rd Uncle ! :D

i haven't let you go

2010-02-07T12:46:00.002+08:00

yay, being taller than mummy is definitely awesome ;D

yesterday's jogging was fun, it was nothing compared to bowen's 2.4km

in any case, lunched at amk macd drive thru then i separated with mummy. met up with at friend, chit chatted for a few hours, its a lucky thing i didn't go home cause no one was at home. lucky thing! then mummy called asking me to wait for her at the lift. i knocked out at 10.45pm last night.

then woke up at three, checked my phone.

it was totally an unexpected one.

seriously, shocked.

then replied. then i did not sleep for like, 2 hours.

i slept back at five. woke up at six. my god.

and i'm awake until now.

am so gonna feel sleepy during study date later with

kaixiang, nicholas,hariz,danish.

am thinking to myself, will i be able to concentrate later?

*SIGHS.

"And Now, I Miss Everything About You. Can't Believe That I Still Want You. And After All The Things We've Been Through, I Miss Everything About You."

its' not only my answer to your curiousity that i want you to know,

i want you to know that i missed you too much :(

its all gone now, isn't it?

2010-02-06T11:13:00.001+08:00

okayxzs, i was TIRED yesterday,

it was a long day.

but awesome. why?

cause little sec one juniors were adorable, but i still love my sec twos'

although they are naughty! ;D

so yar, lessons were fine and everything was cool except for

mother tongue. TEST. oh god. bina ayat has always been the most disastrous section ever.

tests and tests and tests. when i think about it again,

did i study? :/

so yar, after gg yesterday slack-ed at Macd.

reached home @ sometime near 10pm.

today? yuh i'm going out with mummy.

and the best thing of all this morning,

LITTLE TIARA CAME <3

i shared with no one this time, when i thought again that i usually share this with you

YUH! she grew taller ^.^

I MISSED HER A LOT.

it'll be some time soon when my agenda with her is to CAMWHORE.

yuh, will do so later :D

Common test is coming. BEEPBEEP.

Goodbye!

im bored

2010-02-04T20:57:00.002+08:00

of all the days i could post a happy one, today i cannot.

cause in every conversations i had,

i'll say,

I'M BORED.

and, special note to JESPER TAN.

i feel proud for you brother, in every aspect you told me today.

yuh you're right. her loss. but always remember, O levels come first hor!

for everything a guy can do for a girl, is to give her his love.

but most of the time,yours was just a waste. i hope you really learnt

your lesson (: CHEER UP BROTHER.

i never knew i would be like this, again. i want to be happy again.

why is it that i know you're happy while i'm not.

however sad i am, i fake it using my smile.

nobody knows that smile, but only you do.

nobody knew i was lying, but only you do.

nobody knew how sad i felt, but only you do.

nobody knew what it felt like feeling lost like this, not even you.

i feel so, sad.

she returned

2010-02-03T19:16:00.001+08:00

return of monster part 2 ;D

oh well, the monster is back rawr-ing only at her tests & exams.

HAHA, crazy as i can be?

yuh. so yes, i can feel myself coming back !

today was fine, i was ALMOST late for school.

like, seriously! left home at 9.08am.

i was inside the lift panicking!

then lessons were fine and everything.

Mr farid was absent! aww, so physics was awesomely crazy.

hariz and his ONE dollar song and his ONE ringgit.

gossips were getting hotter this time between US.

kaixiang was such a kind soul to have done my job in collecting

$1 from the a1-ians.

then every other lessons passed.

@ canteen with liyana, wf,v,e :D

sat there like some crazy humanxzs.

but yuh, mostly it was talk cock session.

i wrote R-A-W-R on my fingers, and a heart shape ;D

and shengwei has officially got me addicted to his

X33.

so if i wanna say sth,

i'll add X33 behind.

HEHE.

OKAYXS, CRAZY,

today the 3rd of february,

Happy 42nd Birthday My Beloved,

Most Amazing dad,

Saimen Bin Iksan <3

an old picture, when i was still CHUBBY, and still am CHUBBY,

okayxzs, what to say here? you're my most amazing dad and will always be.

oh yeah, you lagged alot abah. i no longer have a boyfriend.

you don't hafta nag at me anymore (:

most importantly,

I MISS YOU ALOT FATHER <3

hope to see you soon & i hope you had a nice day.

i feel sad when you did not reply to my wish text, :(

whereas you replied to brother's

not fair!

okayxzs, will call you soon :P

Jesper Tan.

CHEER UP BROTHER !

DON'T SAD LE OKAY?! I know i suck at comforting someone as extreme as you,

but you gotta move on no matter what! CHEER UP.

am not supposed to

2010-02-02T20:39:00.004+08:00

get the hell out of my head and just shut up.

its just annoying when you KNOW something is bothering but you DON'T KNOW what it is.

God, this feeling definitely suck big time :(

getting distracted by these craps are worthless.

COMMON TEST, COME AND FETCH ME !

had good laughs with liyana, hadi, riduwan and rafi.

i wish laughters lasted longer, best if its forever.

hate feeling D-O-W-N.

gives you nothing but D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-M-E-N-T

Goodbye!

MOAN-day. great

2010-02-01T19:07:00.000+08:00

and yes, January just ended yesterday :(

OMG. HOW FAST. its February now.

oh well. monday today, my god. fucked up day ever.

received a wonderful scolding from mother. wtf. and yar,

sulk throughout. then in class, people were talking about the

SHINee concert or whatever. omg, its annoying. no offence or whatever to

the fans out there. somebody change the class charter.

lifes' great when you know whats' going on with the world.

but sadly, in my world, what the hell is happening?

flirting when you've already got a boyfriend. not wanting the whole world to know

but its on the contrary.

fuck you.

okay, yar, it was that thing bugging me.

not worth thinking.

maths is getting tougher, i am counting down to nothing

except COMMON TEST dates.

its totally nearing.

seriously.

on random note, shengwei, if you're reading this,

your hair is so CUTE X33.

okayxzs, personally, an ultraman or perhaps brain freezer hair.

HAHAHA.

you made my day dude. thanks :D

and i love PE today, 2.4km.

second time in my life running one WHOLE round without stopping.

timing was BAD.

could have done better.

JY everyone.

and yesterday?

study date with kaixiang and nicholas,

YAY. a BIG THANK YOU to C.Kaixiang.

thanks to him i got my maths completed :D

and khairil & rafi came, after five seconds, rafi had to go.

soon, kaixiang went to cut his hair then sent nicholas to the bus stop then sat at some

random void deck until mother called then HOME .

thanks by the way (:

okaxyzsx, so yar, and today, 1st February.

Happy 15th Birthday Amirul Ashraff.

uhyeah, LONG LOST cousin.

for goodness sake dude. i hate your attitude until today and yar, please do change for the

better cousin.

i hope to see you soon & oh my god.

although i never talk to you at all, visiting your facebook profile

makes me feel as though i landed on some MAT REP's profile.

oh great. okay, i miss you cousin. until today,

no matter how rude or crude you might be,

you're still my cousin and you're one frigging handsome cousin i own.

kay, you might never read this but i hope you had a nice day.

Soccer rocks your life and i know that until today :D

GOODBYE.

perhaps you should know

2010-01-31T10:22:00.000+08:00

"I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other for those were some of the best memorable times of my life."

"I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too. but I'll never know."

"I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do.I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you."

"You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back."

"The weirdest thing happened the other morning, I woke up with tears in my eyes and one rolling down my cheeks.and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again."

"Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, I guess I always will."

"Mind is the master power that molds and makes,

And we are Mind, and evermore we take

The tool of thought, and shaping what we will,

Bring forth a thousand joys, a thousand ills,

We think in secret, and it comes to pass -

Our world is but our looking glass."

-James Allen

"Some people care too much, I think it's called love"

-Winnie the Pooh

i'll be i'll be down down down !

2010-01-30T13:19:00.003+08:00

"OH,OH,OH, OPPA SARANG HAE" <3

shit you. this song is stuck in my head.

okayxzs, its a saturday.

am hoping it won't be boring one.

watched Jennifer's Body.

OMG.

ten thumbs up. SERIOUSLY.

i told mummy its' NC16, then she asked me not to watch.

tricked her and told her, IM 16 ALREADY.

mummy : "really ah?! "

me: "NO,one day nine months to be exact"

mummy: "oh my god. cannot believe you're gonna be 16 this year"

watched it during my brunch with mummy.

oh god.

~~following her to kenduri later.~~

on random note, i wonder is i should have my hair CUT.

Taeyon & Jessica inspired me to cut BANGXZS again ;D

hoho, should i or should i not?

as if i'm gonna commit a crime sia.

okayxzs. whatever, perhaps after my 16th birthday.

HAHA.

so longggggg, conclusion, BE PATIENT.

okayxzs!

at times i feel like i'm at lost,

its just sad, but no tears.

Goodbye!

Sometimes Goodbye Is The Only Way Out

is it better ? is it worse ?

2010-01-29T21:04:00.003+08:00

kay, all of a sudden i thought weijie looked cool in this picture ;D

AND so did the rest !

ohwell, its been a disastorous week i'd say. boomxzs.

i am tired, OH- SNSD.

believe me, i am addicted to it like crazy.

something happened today, that made my whole mood swinged & jumped then changed.

i told no one.

i told no soul.

that thing made my mind worked alot that made me feel disappointed in myself.

enough of feeling demoralized.

some assholes are getting on my nerves.

ANNOYED? oh yes i am.

and KAIXIANG. PLEASE, Go on sunday.

HARIZ TOO! .

okayxzs.

Goodbye

i will make you get addicted as well. this is what you call AWESOME<3

losing my voice plus ulcer

2010-01-28T19:39:00.000+08:00

OH! - SNSD (Girls Generation)

awesomest!

today is thursday, one of the best days this week :D

filled with laughters.

F&N was hilarious. with all the funny answerxzs. but,

ohgod, T.A must be handed in by 2nd Feb.

a test coming up.

dangxzsxs :(

i seriously mixed up all the price for TYS.

HOHO, ohwell, after f&n sat with linana!

Good luck for the Bowen NPCC PDS team!

WOO \m/ !

RAWR, then nicholas joined TALKED & TALKED & TALKED.

i swear, people like kaixiang, danish & hariz should have been there with us!

DAMN FUN ! ;D

lifestory. cool stuffs.

okayxzs. homework time already!

I GOTTA FEELING I'M LOSING MY VOICE DUE TO THE TOO MUCH OF LAUGHTERS.

hahahahhahah. but yeah, a memorable one.

not forgetting, Nicholas sim is my current ex bf :P

we were together for FIVE SOLID seconds :D

hahaha, kay, kidding. but oh well.

CHEER UP NICHOLAS.

DON'T BE, "EMOTIONAL" ! :D

get it over and done with yaw? (:

Goodbye!

random crap

2010-01-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

its tuesday today, i gotta admit yesterday was

sleepy day for me :(

ohwell, today too. but not as bad as last night!

TSK. school was fine, HOHO.

but i get hungry SO easily.

that's a bad sign.

Ten Year Series for each subjects are, so many.

oh well. f&n, its' coursework is driving me crazy.

i completed my maths' homework in school.

I believe JiaYan won't chao-sia on thursday! (:

I pity khidhir just now, for being pissed off during his pds drills

i'm craving for more maths' homework.

i want common test to come faster.

okayxsz. Goodbye

If it's worth having, it's worth fighting for

2010-01-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

it didn't rain today (:

but i just feel awkwardly cold & sad today.

Goodbye.

i feel happy when people around me are happy

2010-01-24T15:22:00.001+08:00

yesterday, THE

23rd January 2010,

Mr Yeo Chin Hwei's WEDDING.

how awesome ;D

many turned up , and HOHO.

they dressed up as if its' prom night.
but overall, it was awesome. the procedure in the church itself was fine.
haha, mr yeo & his wife speaked SO SOFTLY.hahas, barely could hear what they said.
after much photo taking, in groups we headed to dhoby ghaut, Plaza Singapura
arcade-ed,
then off to Cathay, caught TOOTHFAIRY ,
with Jinnelle,Annabel,Emelynn,Geraldine,Sonam,Norman,Hadi,Riduwan,Khairil,Kenny & WeiJie!
HAH, awesomest ones ever. after that, we headed to clark quay.
then walk walk, dinner-ed at LJS since weijie kept chanting, "HUNGRY HUNGRY HUNGRY!"
then headed to mrt for home, one by one separated in the mrt.
reached home at 10++pm.
miraculously, mummy didn't scold me :D
and uh, the dreadful ever was, MY FOOT WERE BLISTER-ED.
emelynn was my first-aider.
rawr, thanks a lot girl! :D
was totally in great pain.but overall.
IT WAS AWESOME. its bonding time people !
:D
here come the faces !

so yah, good, fun times.

we should have more of these in future (:

and weifang, you won't get a grandson :P

Goodbye!

wonder if

2010-01-22T21:55:00.001+08:00

kay, cinta yang ini.

love this one

today was awesome, yesterday was great, tomorrow would be wonderful, I HOPE ;D

RAWR, I AM TIRED.

rock on people, it'll be nice tomorrow, ;D

AND, TO MY DEAREST CLARICE LEE !

CHEER UP GIRL ;D

YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM. and uh, crying for a guy won't help

cause YOU know that HE already hurt you.

he suck. i was once in your situation. thinking about how stupid and foolish i was,

now, i don't wish you to suffer babe! not worth it. seriously !

forget him, like you once told me,

"its his loss for not having me"

SO YAR, apply it to you okay?

I KNOW CLARICE IS STRONG !

she WILL forget him.

in the mean time, keep yourself occupy with happy things,

don't think too much okay? and the bitch is a slut.

okayxzs. Goodbye

like wise

2010-01-20T17:31:00.002+08:00

okayxzs, its been quite sometime since i seearched for blogskin.

not because i simply cannot be bothered or what, i just love it spartan.

but now, i guess its back to COLOUR STREAM ;D

ohyeah, i link those i remember, or i shall say often visit. BE HONOURED ;P

anyhooo, vivien says im her child & weifang her husband. thus, they are made my parents.

HAHAHAH. okayaxzs,

and oh. lessons were usual.

fine, casual.

But i gotta confess life without that, C. kaixiang was boring.

no one to talk or refer to during class.

he go camp! SEC ONE CAMP

ah, jealous much. oh yeah i am.

and until today, i don't know what's my answer to myself.

well, i'd have to say,

once bitten twice shy.

i just don't trust myself.

I Think I Like You, But You & I Had Never Knew

just happened to be the nineteeth today

2010-01-19T18:19:00.000+08:00

nineteenth. what a date.

well, this morning i woke up with my heart sinking.

yeah, bad feeling. then mummy sent brother to school first as he needs to be in there early.

uh then, school-ed.

lessons were fine.

oh my god !

english was boomxzs

maths was seriously, wth.

f&n was crazy.

we started coursework.

believe me, only rosabel & james knew how crazy i was.

singing lady gaga's bad romance ! HAHA.

i love my ROBOT thumbdrive :D

HEHE. and uh, its nice to know that coursework can be scored easily but the

process in scoring is scary.

BURRRRRRRRR. i need help.

in, i also don't know whatttt.

in any case, playing monkey with

liyana,kaixiang,junwei,jonathan,danish,chinhong & nicholas was awesome.

it made me went, "I DIDNT THINK OF ANYTHING"

its amazing right? yarrrrr, okayxzsxs. i keep chanting,

I AM HUNGRY.

that's a bad sign.

really.i am gonna get rounder & rounder.

bumble beee. but anyho, i am STILL hungry.

grr, at this point of time, i suddenly miss being the SAD me.

HAHA. don't talk crap. i am not gonna back there. NONO.

never,

OKAYXZS. one last thing before i zoommmzxzxs,

to my beloved,

CUTE. HANDSOME. ANNOYING. SHORT. STUBBORN. HARD-HEADED. PLAYFUL. CHILDISH. MATURED MINDSET BLOOD BROTHER,

KHAIRUL SYAFIQ BIN SAIMEN.

Happy 9th Birthdayyyyyyyyyy Dodo bird

ohyeahzxs, i'll have to say, I LOVE YOU ALOT LITTLE KID.

although you always get on my nerves but yeah, you were the one whom i shared EVERYTHING with.

i shared my sadness with you and of course, i clearly remembered the warm hug you gave me when i recently broke up with you personally know who. and good luck jio-ing denise. YOU HAVE YET TO SHOW ME THAT GIRL.

i hope you'll be a diligent boy and stop creating or troubling mummy you understand? oh well, i know you do.

don't worry! your sister won't sing you a birthday song cause i know you'll just freeze there :P grow up and be a much handsome and wiser boy. mix with the correct people and brother, FASTER GROW UP!

i'm waiting for you to reach 15! i promise, i'll date you out. that is if when im working and i've got my payy :P

cause your sister here believes and trust YOU that you'll not be one of the floating caps mat in public.

make good choices little brother. SIX MORE YEARS TO YOUR FIERCE FIFTEEN.

i'll be counting.

:D and, stop wasting money on ANIMAL KAISER -.-

Goodbye loverbirds.

looks like i haven't do what i'm supposed to

2010-01-18T17:11:00.003+08:00

RAWR OKAYXZS. summary, i had a good weeeeeekend :D

i accomapnies somebody in order to help kill one hour of his time ; BOREDOM

saturday ;D

went out with mummy & brother.

GOSH. alvin & the chipmunks was awesome. HOHOHO

BROTHERHOOD ! how adorable!

THEODORE WAS THE ONE I WISH I COULD PINCH !!

HAHAHA. okayxssz.

then yar, when i reached home, about 15-30 mins later met that somebody then

talktalktalktalktalktalk until 10pm !

thenn homeedxzs then yar off to bed,

afterwhich,

the next day: SUNDAY.

supposedly a study date with kaixiang & danish

HOHO. we talked alot of crap.

SERIOUSLY.

like oh my god. i didn't do much. anyhoooo, sat at some random void deck with khairiah & rosma.

then met up with somebody, then HOHO. sorry ya, 30 minutes only.

and, saw little kids running from one end to the other with their pet, dog.

UNCHAINED.

hah

TODAY.

school was, fine.

even today, when i'm SUPPOSE to be forgetting,

i still have to say,

don't be such a hyprocrite, come and confront me if you're unhappy with me.

don't have to be such an asshole to bitch about people.

bitch about me also RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.

short slut. seriously.

i'm still wondering what made hariz think i fell asleep during ss just because i'm super quite!

HAHA. unbelievable :P

so yes, physics.

I SWEAR, I TRIED HARD TO FOCUS, but my mind was seriously

AWAY.

like, idle.

home-ed after that.

Goodbye.

one thing i gotta fucking confess cause the longer i keep it,

the worse it'll be,

short _____ slut like YOU, can stop pretending and playing "great"

drama's to just tell me " im your friend "

MY FRIENDS, when they are unhappy with me, they talk things out face-to-face.

stop bitching, BITCH

oh im so angry at you.

Goodbye

feels down

2010-01-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

BEST FRIEND! :( Get Well Soon ! stop stressing yourself up & always think of me,

cause i'm your medicineeeee :D text me if you're in need. you missed out alot.

and i just got alot to tell you.

I LOVE YOU BESTFRIEND, like always! ;D

SO ITS FRIDAY.

i do not know whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, after mother tongue today,

i felt ultra-hypered! well, during maths.

weird thing is, USUALLY,

i go to danish and seek help.

but today, (perhaps hes' too EXCITED cause, his BABY had just returned from camp),

he asked me maths question AND its a simple one.

OH GOD.

psst, i'm starting to feel " i love you, maths"

HAHA, okayxzsx boomz. thats hot & awesome.

so yar, after maths, was like some aforte talk.

ten minutes at that!

so yar, then off to guides room.

bestfeee left, then GUIDES throughout.

HAHA, Joy was like, GRR-ing cause she didn't got to enter thanks to

Mr Farid. cheeesh.

i was her superman for just now.

okayxzs kidding.

did 200 buddha claps with ladies.

HAHA, awesome siaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D

SERIOUSSSSSLY.

i'm gaining muscles. i can feel.

okayxzs, crap ! :P

ibrahim & rafi was being so DOTDOT. but nevermind (:

then dinner-ed at hgpt with AWESOME PEOPLE.

then headed home with jesslyn ! (:

don't worry babe, its the past ! don't let it get all over you.

and at some of point NOW.

its just the,

be jealous. cause i love them, not you :P

hehe. kidding.

i love you la.

i also don't know who. HURHUR.

okayzxs. done? yeah, Goodbye!

never ending

2010-01-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

oh dear, its friday tomorrow.

endless thought, but a minute thought,

don't think about it.

strawberry avalanche

2010-01-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

Adam Young ; OWL CITY <3

uhmygod. i want him as my boyfriend. come to singapore someday,

i'll wait for you.

OKAY, STAR-STRUCKED.

HAHAHAHA, anywayxzsx, in class just now,

i THOUGHT i've forgotten about it,

but when i was filling in the dates of my friend's brithday,

A THOUSAND AND THOUSAND

things flashed through my mind, oh God.

well bestfriend, i told you i won't cry cause i'm strong.

but inside i was screaming ya know ?:(

anyhoooo, like i said to bestea, "theres' A LOT of dates i will never forget"

i really, won't forget them (:

in a month's time, a yellow carebear given by a special friend, would turn a year old.

i miss my that friend. hes' moving on to poly now.

he did well for his O levels. felt damn happy for him! :D

i know from the beginning, your maths. E-maths or A-maths.

they are equally awesome.

so if i asked you out to tutor me, please don't turn me down ;D

miss you lotxzxs dudeeeeee ! :(

okayzxxs, kaixiang, you're so dead man. i know you're reading and yar,

i won't copy notes for you when you go for that camp thingy & i won't miss you dude.

you made me merajuk >:-[

*grins.

kay, kidding. he did sth bad. grrrr.

okayxzsx,

MATHS WAS,

why the hell is mr see picking on me?! argh.

but nevermind, i got through maths with a good brain.

although i did the questions wrongly. damnit.

chemistry was yay, again. i left the class with definitions in my brain ;D

i miss someone :(

my little tiara, haven't seen her since 26th december !

i might be changing my URL ;D

don't whine. i've been stuck with this url for many decades.

don't you get sick?

don't worry. i'll see if i wanna move on to wordpress/tumblr/livejournal*(no wait. i've got many LiveJournal's already)/AND MANY OTHERS.

-.-

tumblr, a good choice, the in-thing now right?

HAHA, okayxzsx. SEE FIRST.

GOODBYE LOVERBIRDS.

stop smooch dates. start study dates, before its too late. ;D

for the fall

2010-01-12T18:04:00.001+08:00

with friends like these, well who needs enemies?

okay hello tuesday!

not awesome, :(

CAUSE, i got my question for N level already,

say "AHHH'

for F&N

ahur, panic people !! okay go! study your butt off the chair.

today was fine i'd say, upon listening to danish's tale about someone + parent = crying.

RAWR, dude, you've gone too far. really.

and uh, maths! perhaps i'm starting to LOVE it :D

like REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY.

hahahas, anyhooozxsxs, it felt good seeing everlasting friendships.

on random noteexzsxsx, my ulcer is seriously killing me.

i want to grow taller.

lets grow.

GO!

hmm,

NeYo-Never Knew I Needed,

this song, is my track nowwww, press play in my life and you'll hear me sing ;P

hehhexzs, next moment you see, glass shattering. okayxzs. kidding.

anywayxzsx, some awesome lyrics.

I LOVE THIS SONG. SERIOUSLY!!

" you're the best thing i never knew i needed "

For the way you changed my plans

For being the perfect distraction

For the way you took the idea that I have

Of everything that I wanted to have

And made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

For the ending of my first begin

(Ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)

And for the rare and unexpected friend

(Ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)

For the way you're something that I never choose

But at the same time something I don't wanna lose

And never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

You're the best thing I Never Knew I Needed

So when you were here I had no idea

You're the best thing I never knew I needed

So now it's so clear I need you here always

My accidental happily (ever after oh oh oh)

The way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)

I must admit you were not a part of my book

But now if you open it up and take a look

You're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

You're the best thing I never knew I needed (oh)

So when you were here I had no idea

You're the best thing I never knew I needed (that I needed)

So now it's so clear I need you here always

Who'd knew that I'd be here (who'd knew that I'd be here oh oh)

So unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)

Undeniably happy (hey)

Said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

Girl you're the...

You're the best thing I never knew I needed (said I needed oh oh)

So when you were here I had no idea

You're the best thing I never knew I needed (needed oh)

So now it's so clear I need you here always

Baby baby

Now it's so clear I need you here always

Goodbye.

vanilla twilight

2010-01-11T17:34:00.000+08:00

its so amazing to know that most of my senior did well for their "O"Levels.

okays, mother tongue results was, B3.

okay. i was expecting a pathetic D7! but thank God (:

congrats to Ros Amirah, who got like A1. amazing babe.

school & lessons, they were fine. except that my voice was DIFFERENT.

and oh, people! bring $2 for photo taking tomorrowwwwww :D

somebody told me that, people at the brown bench thought i was crying.

it was my runny nose. hahs, sweet ah, people thought i crying!

cheeehxs!

i hate my voice now. so bitchy.

okayxsz, im done.

trust me, danish deserved that good ranting i gave cause he was criticizing ME,

for scoring a pathetic B3 for malay.

i told him, at least i sat for the paper & scored THIS. what about yourself?

GRR. frigging angry man. BUT. never merajuk :P

like after, so many weeks, i finally gave what i had to.

its clear and empty now i suppose.

Good Luck in everything you do from now on (:

i will never forget you.

Goodbye!

double trouble

2010-01-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

ulcer killxzs.

i am sick. TSK.

went to hg pt macd with

kaixiang, danish, hariz, hanson.

intention : STUDY

results: TALK CRAP.

one thing, i didn't know, those guys could be such busybodies :P

topic of the day, MERAJUK.

SAW ATIKAHHH!! <3

MISS HER LOTXZS, woo good luck for your O level this year babe ;D

hehexzs ! talked for a little while, then headed offfff.

i followed mummy to hg green.

hah, so many changes. and so many maid agencies.

then headed to shop & save. SAW KAK SYAZAWANI !!<3

another one, i missed her alotttttt. then then talked talked, then off home. but before that,

ice yip texted me saying he saw me at 7-eleven.

HAHA, so funneh!

then homeeee. i have been sneezing like some crazy girl.

argh, okayxzsxs. off to bed now.

dear seniors, Good Luck For Your O Level Results Tomorrowwwwwww :D

four-four-five post.

2010-01-09T18:48:00.002+08:00

its' much lifeless when you're caught looking SAD.

i'm starting to hate this word called, "sad"
pulls me down man. not only the word. i abhor the feeling too. seriously.

but i consider myself lucky cause theres' someone, who'll like. accompany me on the phone; texting.

then i realised, i forget the world when i'm texting him.

because almost every text he sent, made me LAUGH.

really. really.

thanks dude (:

but the weirdest thing, see each other in school like, -SPEECHLESS-

okay, so funny! but anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,

CCA CARNIVAL WAS AWESOME,

I LOVE THIS YEARS' GG PERFORMANCE \m/ !

ohyeah, you heard me, 2010's!!!

really ! aww, what?

you missed the performance? nevermind la! just join girl guides :D

so yeah, i feel rather, happy we hit 29 names :D

i really hope these twenty nine little girls would turn up this friday!!

okay go! after everything, headed for lunch with clarice,valerie,jamila & aishah.

we were talking ; LOVE LIFE.

suckest topic for me, but i feel happy when listening about others'

as long as they are happy, so am i.

thennnnnn, walked home with the little juniorxszxs.

hahah, jamila went, "don't worry too much"

so sweet man! especially sth like that coming out from juniors.

ytd too, from denise & jiani.

GAH! i only know that chubby, cute babies cheer me up.

now, its awesome juniors too. thanks :D

waiting for night to fall, cause i'm hoping to complete my homeworkkk too!

i don't wish to owe Mr See anything. seriously. he'll hunt me down,

like, oh you'll never know :P

on random note, listening to Owl City- Fireflies,

my heart sank. i feel down.

cause he came into my mind, :(

lately, too. i've been feeling so, annoyed. yet disappointed.

be it, everything. first thought,

give up everything. then i remembered, the same guy, telling me,

don't give up.

falling sick. i seriously am.

then i felt,

“I thought by meeting this new guy, talking to this guy on the phone all night, and looking forward to seeing his face everyday that it would make me stop wanting you. That wasn't the case at all, instead, whenever I talked to this guy, or when I looked at this guy... all I wanted in the whole world was for it to be you.” -Hollie Seals

i really think, this is absolutely true :(

i was determined to really let it all go, but what happened now?

its' coming back.

i hate seeing my best friend giving up on what to say to me when i feel sad.

yes, i feel touched when my friends, say"cheer up!"

then i responded. "yes, okay i will"

but i hate myself for disppointing them & lying to myself cause i know, i can never cheer up genuinely.

i don't know what i want. i seriously feel like giving up.

BUT, i just need to wait for more things to happen before i really can say, "i want to give up"

which i hope i won't.

hopelessly feeling down.

yeah i hell agree with you, crying doesn't help.

talking to you would make it worse, thats' why i stopped.

but my heart says "i missed you". my mind asked "for what?!"

then i get all depressed not knowing what to do.

i hate the way i am living now. other than this, people around me ain't giving me a good time either.

they made things worst for me.

YOU think i like to argue with you almost everytime i see you?

i swear, i don't.

you think its fun giving you attitude in front of others? no it isn't.

especially in front of juniors.

you think i love picking up a fight with you all the time?

no it isn't.

you think i love to see my friendship with you for near four solid years with you collapse?!

NO. in fact, i tried means and ways to save it. but it seemed that everytime i tried,

it will always be the time when you start showing me your flaws. WHY?!

you think i love saying, "aiya, anything la up to you"?
NO. cause i seriously think, if i give more ideas then you'll still choose your awesome, creative one. so whats the point in you asking me for opinion when you know you want it your way.

its because of all this, i didn't want to acknowledge you at all or perhaps, entertain you, cause i know, I KNOW, at the end of the day, we will go home, to bed, to sleep, with COLD shoulders towards each other,

babe, if you wanna know, i leave things up to you, cause i really, really, really, give up.

its up to you if you want to throw our friendship away. let me tell you,

this is not the first time.

Goodbye humans. i needa get myself on mediaction before i die!
-

specially for ALEX,
i am so sorry dude!! not that i forget, but i had no time to update yesterday,
and OMG. sixteenth!!!!! heh
Happy (belated) 16th Birthday Alex :D
SMILE ALWAYS MR BRIGHTSIDE (:

i love it genuine.

2010-01-07T21:46:00.001+08:00

i hate it when friendship starts to build up,

but because of simple minor problems, we were destroyed all over again.

then we start building fake walls.

its so fake. seriously, i love it genuine.

i'm going to fall sick anytime now.

good luck loverbirds.

f&n coursework question will be out this tuesday,

the thingy teacher gave just now scares me.
ain't gonna update as often like i used to.
i missed my carefree life.
filled with joy, laughters & free times.
but its different now. adapting to it.
i am feeling so, so down.

Goodbye.

fall back into place loverbird

2010-01-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

MY LOVER <3

woo. okayxzs, i love this picha ! hehheh.

second day of sec one orientation. okayxzs, switched grps.

unorganized.

good thing i'm still together with Joleen! mandy was in too!.

khidhir was supposedly to be with us but he, MIA, for haircut.

ahur :/

TODAY, WAS HAIRCHECK.

frigging wth. many ex classmates were caught.

and i heard that my f&n class, we're banded. AWWW. that's SAD.

but i've got Brent. (: don't worry Natasha, its not a bastard/ busted kind of thing ahkay.

so yar, i forget what happened but i remembered screaming when i saw some of my,

"LONG LOST BROTHERS'"

like that hotstuff & weijie!

HAH, insanity really kills.

that was when i was bringing the little ones' around bowen.

i asked, "any questions?"

"ya. can we sit down?"

HAHA. then i said, "NO, later! we're ending soon!"

they looked forward so much to go the library, BUT, sadly, it was closed

aww. haha, air conditioned mah!

then i forget what happened, i helped them stamped their banner with my awesome fingerprints.

HAHAHA :D

then, i forget what happened, landed myself in the canteen with the awesome people.

liyana, danish, kaixiang, hariz! then nicholas came, talk talk talk.

Farah came too! hahas, for some ncdcc thingy i guess. then,

OPPS. time for cca open house rehearsals.

my reaction when that cher said,
"it was much much much much better than last years'"

i was like, "were we that atrocious?!"

-.-

so yar, SEC ONES' GIRLS, JOIN GIRL GUIDES OKAY? ;D

the ladies in blue ! :D

Clarice cammeee! :D

HOHOHO ! running around with emelynn & melissa was amazing. seriously.

i went crazy for awhile.

HAHA, yeah, then after everything headed HOMEE.

had a good talk with twin ;D

okay, yar, i forget what happened,

i'm looking forward to tomorrow !

Goodbye!

shock of my life

2010-01-04T20:43:00.001+08:00

i love strawberrieszx, i always do.

uh-oh. kay, three peepo caught me being different. argh,

school reopens, new juniors, new ugly/awesome lookxzs,

new bags, new everything.

HAHA. but no new me ? ayee.haha.

okayxzs. crapp. the start was , okay, thanks mummeh for sending meee :D

before i left home, i texted a friend telling him how i felt :/

it seriously felt weird !!! :( BUT,

okayxzxs, but at the end of the day,i kicked the sorrow bucket aside & had laughters

again.

HAH. Jessie, if you're reading this, and IF your instincts' are right,

i'll totally be speechless babe.

HOHO ;D

i miss ALOT OF UNSUNG HUMANS, okay. i seriously do!

and, lifes' great with little juniorsxxs, i meant the cool and calm ones. not

those, wannabe people. you know you knw.

and i caught one which, from one glance, he looked like SEZAIRI.

hahhahaaaa, that boy seriously got me star-strucked for the moment.

kay, yar, Team F ;D ftw !!!!

remembered telling wf the other meaning of FTW. :P

"Confusion is the most honest response."

ahkay.

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING CRAZY AGAIN.

but each time i try, i failed cause it pulled me back.

Goodbye!

shes gone again

2010-01-03T20:42:00.001+08:00

went out to TM with twin i got my bag

& i loved it.

i got my stuffs already. the one thing i lost now is my soul.

two friends already told me i'm DIFFERENT.

how different can i be?! argh. this sucks man

until i got one, while chatting on msn

"*wah

*very not used to you being not so hyper

*cheer up"

WHERE IS MY OLD, CHEERFUL & CRAZY SELF?

nobody knows' where is she, cause shes' GONE.

i want her back.

school's tomorrow. uh my god.

sec one orientation is tomorrow.

i miss khairiah. being facilitators for class 1t2 last year, 2009 was awesome.

especially with khairiah. but this year, i'm doing it with somebody else.

aww man. anywaysxzs, i just need my old self back.

Goodbye!

they saw sadness in my eyes, they saw disappointment in me, they saw frownings on my face, they are my friends.

bestfy knocked sense in me when she said,
"wheres my best friend ?

*the one i knew for almost 10years .'"

oh god, bring my old self back

better or not, its' up to YOU

2010-01-02T11:41:00.001+08:00

- its saturday -

its' better that we're friends. i feel much better as your friend.

thanks my dearest friend (S) ;D

i won't be all surprised if one day i were to love you once again

2010-01-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

and so last night, the last day of 2009.

liyana & myself was actually in the same bus as khidhir, so we made our way there.

then to bugis, lunch-ed at BK. then to iluma! hoho, arcade :D

i just love the longggggg tickets. hahas,

then after the arcade, we made our way to bugis junction, bought tickets for the movie; Old Dogs.

while waiting for time to fly pass, we shopped! so we headed to bugis junction, twin & i bought our wallets !

and we bought a best friend necklace. eh i love it man! it has been ages since i wanted sth like that!

^.^ i told her, "if our necklace break means you don't friend me anymore, promise okay?"

hahas, sweet uhxzs, an extremely GOOOOOOD thing too be in the same class as her again this year, <3

then we after shopping for our necklace headed to topman/topshop. the guys were at shopping too.

hahs, oh no. it was just hadi who bought the shirt. the rich old man spent $69.90 on three shirts.

HAHA, then headed to the cinema , bought our popcornsxzs, shared with khidhir!

he said i didn't have to pay him back, but i want to someday, hehexzs ;D

the movie was hilarious. really. andddddd, it was my first time that i heard riduwan & khidhir laughing loudly. HAHAHAHAH. cute yet cool.

then after that, headed to iluma again, then soon headed to hg interchange, then 72-ed !

escorted by khidhir, hahaha! in the end,

brrrrr,we didn't countdown at town,instead i shouted Happy New Year in front of my house corridor.

hah. unable to sleep, so i zzzz-ed at 2 near three. okayxzs done uh.

enjoy your new year honeybees. omg. i'm gonna be sixteen this year.

its a new year, time for new things to happen

2010-01-01T00:27:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year everyone :D

had loads of fun 31st December.

with,

liyana, khidhir, hadi & riduwan. basically, supposedly to be a countdown but some had

to go home early, so yeah,

i ended up screaming at my house corridor.

thank you khidhir (:

and so yes, everyone goes, happy new year here & there ! :D

okayxzs, i am tired, i'll post some pictures tomorrow okay?

my head & mind is super tired.

WHATS MY RESOLUTION?

my boyfriend is my "N" Level. i will only let it go after i received my results.

i am very determined to work hard for it.

its the time now, to let go, of everything

and leave them as a memory of 2009.

the best thing that had happened to me in 2009 was that

i was blessed with an awesome mother and father and family.

the wonderful awesome friends or seniors i have in school & especially my cca mates.

and the most of all, at least i knew that my love for that ONE didn't go down to waste

cause i am thankful & grateful that he returned me the same feeling, even for a while.

i am contented. its time i stop all these for a while, just for N levels.

i want to make it to Sec 5.i want to make my parents' proud.

i want to do something that i've been planning for myself during late 2009.

i am determined that it will happen.

i thank God for making 2010 exist.

i thank everyone for everything you've done.

i sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, had i ever done any wrong towards you,

please forgive me.

lastly, to that ONE, i thank you for breaking my record in 2009

as to jio one guy for at least, close to a year? hahas, i suffered, but i'm happy if you're happy.

Goodbye & Goodnight people.

don't waste your 2010(:

don't repeat what you've done wrong in 2009, it ain't worth it you know?

i love you, 2009.

i never wanted these.

2009-12-30T17:49:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY

i had loads of stress free fun with these four ladies,

thanks alot yaw <3 !

be it in school or after that.

and heyy, cycling during the evening is awesome :D

really. i rode with weifang the double oneeee :O

hahas, like duh, she knows how to cycle so yar, she sat the front one !

then jiayan solo. sam with emelynn. eh fun ah.

then headed to the npcc's bbq.

the fish was awesome. (:

hudadadadada + her fareezezeze. haha, cute luhxzs yeah?

talked to hyriah too. hoho. then yar, you know,

we played taiti -.- killed time.

omg, throughout my whole time sitting there i was freezing cold.

i felt weird.

then soon, headed to e-hub. walk walk walk.

they knew, my soul was not there.

then soon mummy came then sent them some where at the bus stop.

brother was being interviewed inside the car. HAHA!

TODAY.

had guides, although i was super blank about what they were going to do,

i just followed the flow !

reading weifang's post regarding the Junko Furuta, the girl who suffered 44 days of torture. OHMYGOD.

i really think that, those boys should have experienced the exact same thing. really! heartless & jerk ass-es.

human or not i also don't know.

anyhoo, OMG.

2009 ending eh :(

i feel sad man D:

Goodbye!

they played OUR favourite song ; fireflies

2009-12-30T08:37:00.001+08:00

i will update later !

i feel extremely weak after being heartbroken

2009-12-27T09:59:00.003+08:00

i was dead for the past, well you know how long.

i didn't say i'm alive again.

anyhooo, on the 24th of december two 00 nine,

after collecting my specs, hey its awesome man i loved it ! :D ,

i went out with my BOYFRIEND<3; khairiah !

:D awesome-est date, although it was mostly crying. haha, i was shocked that she tear-ed a little.

be strong girl ! ^.^

we were at hg mall! hoho, then ate popiah ! eh nice :D

then headed home via one one twoo. didn't quite enjoy the

bus ride, cause i knoww deep inside i was cryinggg!

gah, then home for awhile, then went to meet khidhir & hy at some void deck

on the way to the void deck, i was telling the person i was on the phone with,

OMG.OMG. i'm so dead man.

so yeahhh, the two siblings sat exactly at the void deck which i

don't plan to go ! then i saw the "slanted tree" ah, memories starts coming back

then hariz called khidhir, idk what the hell.

boom , i ended up choosing not to go home yet but learn to ride a bike with them!

soon hy went home cause she needs to work the day after, thanks alot for the day my friend ! (:

then learn like some mad girl, at least i got a little bit! need more practice

theeen, khidhir didn't pump the tire of the bicycle, he came back fainting on the floor

-.-

so the three of us, ; hariz, khidhir & myself.

spent our time talking about LIFE in secondary school 2009(:

at about like, 8 plus close to nine ? yeah, around there! fun ah, i agree with hariz

that our circle of friends, is good ! :D

so then hariz and his sexy white bicycle. haha. nice luhxzs, then khidhir was moaning about him not getting any rewards at the end of the year -.- well dude, your sister told me you got more than she does.

hahaxzs ! :D then mummeh called, so returned the bike at khidhir's then accompanied him to hg pt

hariz was cycling the whole journey, envy him ! he gets' to cool & chill out in the cool cool night air!

then since mummy was hurrying me, the two gentlemens hurried in their walking speeds to send me home.

haha, how nice ! so, they did sent me until my voidie, hahas, escorted sia. awesome luhxs right, got this kind of friends ! i'm blessed, thanks God (:
i had a night , with my eyes flooded with tears before i slept.
25th december 2 zero zero 9
MERRY CHRISTMAS' humanxzs.
late? nevermind la!
then around afternoon, headed to ibu's crib.
loved her house :D

21st storey view kills miseries(?)NAH!
it made me worsen my condition when i saw singapore flyer,
THINGS KEEP COMING THROUGH MY MIND.
and i was damn bored inside the room so little tiara and her cousin, nabil, same age as her, haha, difference of only one month
i took pictures of them; and made a story

"where is my prince?"

tiara: "here he comes sweeping me off my feet! hey nabil, take me somewhere we can be alone i'll be waiting all there's left to do is run, you'll be the prince and i'll be the princess baby just say yes"

nabil: "wait my head itchy"

tiara: " can we run now?"

nabil:"no! i havent ask my parents yet"

nabil:" okayxzs! my parents disagree but i still want to run away because i love you"

and they lived,

"HAPPILY EVER AFTER"

okay, hayati what the hell?=.=

if onlyyyyy, teenagers love were as simple. okay shut up.

they are simply crap.

N levels, hayati. N levels. your current boyfriend!!!!!!!!!

then an unexpected plan to overnight at her house, during midnight, my phone battery was already damn low.
so i switched it off ! OFF.
i slept with little tiara in her room.
okay, so i thought i could doze off peacefully.
BUT THEN, little tiara was crying in the middle of the night,
"i want mummy" hah, cute luhxzs. i was tossing & turning thinking it was in my dreams that little kids were crying but when i turned to her direction, haha, omg. she was sitting and crying. so as a good soul,
i carried her out to her mummy in my damn sleepy condition. twice ehh!
then my aunt ended up sleeping next to her.
it was already COLD, then she switched on the air con too! OH GOD.
then the next morning,
26th december 2009.
played around withe little tiara, then third aunt & uncle had to go to the market.
so i baby sit; roy ron tiara & my bro
they were playing tiara's cash register. HAHA.
on teevee, some good christmas movies. just watch luhxsz, my phone also dead -.-
so yarr, on it also like, snap some nice view !
but then it rained so heavily

so i did nothing much, headed home around 10pm !

today?i did went out with mummy!

i totally forget the name of the bridge, but its the long long long metal bridge near henderson.

i'm telling you, it'll be nice if you go there in the morning ! (:

thanks to this silly brother of mine, we didn't manage to finish the whole long thing.

i wanna go there catch fresh air again.

anyhoooooooooooooooxzs,

will be out & down in school from tomorrow until wednesday!

don't sad sad people !

yes, i still miss my giant :(

Goodbye

if you're the bird then i'm the worm

2009-12-24T08:19:00.001+08:00

Nineteen Ten is history.

you wanted to go separate ways, and so we did.

i'll remember everything. you're the one guy that has made me cried a lot.

oh well, it was hell suffering though.

Thanks for everything.

Power Ranger ; Giant. <3

ahmygod. last night i was fine,

how come today as i'm typing this i'm crying?!

argh, i need to be strong.

i really need to be!

may school reopens faster! i want to drown myself in misery with books.

no guy is worth crying for.

but if you already feel upset then how to hold on to it?

anyhoo, i know i'll be fine soon.

"i might be lose my mind for awhile but i'll be fine,

have you heard there's this thing that heals' and its' called time

clock can tick away happy will fall in place

i know. my heart will break, a new me will this space"- Turn It Up, Pixie Lott

changes you never notice

2009-12-23T09:16:00.012+08:00

Hello.
Will it rain today?
well, i did this,

a few days back, today,

i feel like it was a waste of effort.

humans, if you aren't blind you'll see sth there.

i felt extremely, (upset) , i tried to remove the initial h & the heart next to it,

and i ended up peeling off my own skin.

ouch, but thats' okay cause i thought the pain that h has inside the heart is much worse than

just the skin.

oh well, sometimes, i wonder if he really does love me.

anyhoo, i poured enough rain just now.

will be in school again today,

feel

i needa cheer you up machine too.

very,very,very,very

hopefully theres' cute juniors' today!

S A D .

you don't know that do you?

:'(

okays, smart enough?lla tceles, kcilc thgir !

eh, not alien language luh dodo bird.
sad case my dearest hyriah is working today,
:( meet up someday yar?
new specs is ready to be collected ^.^
i love it cause its browwwwwn ;D
-
GG was rather, awesome today, i'd say.
like finally we got our basics yaw ^.^
and i'm totally touched by weifang, emelynn,samantha & valerie.
not forgetting thanks rafi (ella's :D )for the ear too! & hey yaw, yours eh, eight months still going strong,
i like ! :D
and yar, i'm sorry emelynn, it was your first time seeing me cry because of IT.
sorry much!
at least i knew i've got friends that care !
and RAWR, i love ibrahim's hair. its' nicer like that! haha !
okays, i'm done for today.
will post weifang's artistic pictures tomorrow, i am tired .
my eyes are :O
my hands, the skin. i cannot leaving under running water,
its' very painful ! :( argh,
anyhoo.
i hope it'll get better.
-SIGHS- , I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO.
:'(
Goodbye!

:'(

2009-12-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

HEADED, to schooooool

HAHA, hanging banners was hard,

it was fun too!

^.^

then, while holding the banner, saw someone walking at the corridor,

that too was told by weifang & samantha.

sweet of them luhzxs, but TOO BAD.

they know i know.

so yeahxzsxs, headed for lunch after that.

then we talked until,

"eh, we clear the guides den today ah"

HAHA

so we REALLY DID.

and believe me, IT WAS

like, AW OMG.

our hardwork \m/

and of course, i was sneezing like some crazy girl AGAIN.

never ending ahkay, we started spring cleaning at about 2.15pm?

then ended at 6.20pm.

heh, i did my last sweep,

HAHA, bad luck & good luck.

cute people.

pwn-ed the school today man! we were the like, last to leave :D

then got this parent haha,

we were promoting GG ;D

saw mr farid & ms goh,

same question sia,

"eh so late already! why haven't go home?"

and so we did !

ahkay, then hommmeee-ed !

banquet's popiah is not bad after all.

althought the nuts are all over, but nevermind la.

nice, delicious :P

okay, GO!

Goodbye!

"when you're not caring means you're not loving,

when you're not loving, its the ending."

- something random my mother always tell me.

its goes out to everything.

oh well, true though.

start afresh shall we? i don't want to fight with you anymore :(

2009-12-21T16:13:00.002+08:00

met up with the, a-wesome ladies.bs.com

then THIS-CUSSED. many things.

left hgpt macd then headed to mph.

uhuh-uhuh. at least we got the basic on what they WANT to

do, ladies, BUCK UP ;D you cann do it !

so yeahxzxs, wonder when is cca open house.

i feel, rather, SO-SO today.

thanksxzs WF.F.JY.S ;D

okay, done right?

Goodbye

Stay cheerful, be happy.

i know,everyone says that !

tell yourself that tomorrow would be a better day,

if you start smiling throughout today,

i'm doing so!

buang yang keruh,ambil yang jernih.
wow? okays, some malay proverb :D

Pixie Lott - Turn It Up

Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.

I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.

Now that we've come to the end of a story-y and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.

Might hurt some, not too much, but I gotta let it wait.

As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.

Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.

'coz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.

We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Baby, it's better, and I want you, to be happy.

Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.

Then easy the more and the more you try.

So there'll be cheating, better saving, but not me and my boy.

We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.

So when we go nuts, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.

We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine (fiiiine).

Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time (tiiiime).

Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.

I know, my heart will break, a new me will fill this space.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.

We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

OH MY GOD. I WUVVV IT.

trust me, theres' a reason WHY i love this song, (:

2009-12-21T07:59:00.000+08:00

Speechless.

thinking how you left me for dead

2009-12-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

i went out with mummy to clear stuffs at third aunt old house AGAIN.

this time round, i was sneezing like a real crazy girl !

ah well, then i found my SOFT TOYS!

and uh, barbie dolls.

YES, i'm a girl & i used to play with those bitchy dolls.

got a problem with that?

i can't believe i'm still keeping them >.<

HOHO, but i gave away the barbie house to MR bin.

hurhur, and well, i "browse" through

my soft toys.

HAHA, cannot believe just by looking at those,

oh so adorable stuffs got me out boredom.

^^ i had to many hello kittys'

:D hee, the one she & the boyfriend, daniel

heh, okay sure thing i am still keeping them, mummy says OK!

so ahur, i keep luhxzsxzs. :D

then then off to send brother to dad's

HAHA, little nephew was there.

heh, I GOT HIS NAME WRONG.

pronounced as, ASH-FIE

haha, i swear i do not know how to spell his name,

AND again, the little boy stared at me weirdly ! :(

RAWR, you're one adorable young man ^^

so yeahxzs, headed home after that,

had a good sms talk with, a friend, well.

all the best yaw next year ^.^

and so i'm here.

HEAD OVER HEELS-BOYS LIKE GIRLS (Y)

anyhooooooo ! i am gonna be drowning myself with GG stuffs from

tomorrow until the cca open house ends,

ladies, crack the brain yawwww :P

so, don't date me.

AND

i miss my

dear

LITTLE TIARA! D;

that little NAUGHTY girl !

okay go!

I'M IN A GOOD MOOD TODAY,

after looking at pooh bear ^.^

i love my HAIR <3

Kay ahkay,

Goodbye.

it fell on deaf ears'

2009-12-19T16:50:00.007+08:00

FIRST AND FORE MOST,

okays, OMG. so SECTWWOOOOO ! HAHA.

okaxyzsxs, rock on BMB trumpet member :D

Happy 15th Birthday Dianah:D
-
and so i went out with my dearest twinnyyyy :D
only she knew how fucked up i was =.=
so yeahxssz, we headed to tampines mall. we say,
"omg. CUTE GUYS"
ahkay, then then surveyed here & there, found what we wanted,
buying it some other time, bought our pencil case ^^
I WUV IT.
then lunch-ed at LJS,
haha, i loveeeeee the CHEEZ.
:D then then headed to hougang mall !
OMG, i was super, *only god knew how i felt*
then camwhored in the bus,
AND OH!
somebody left curry puffs in the bus, WE WERE LAUGHING.
the epok-epok cheered me up.
HAHA.
crap but yah, it helped. then then ....

yah, then after a few stops, some hot guys sat next to us. HAHA,

when they alighted, we went

"EH OMG. CUTE RIGHT?!"

haha, yeah cute. whatever-guys.

then headed HOME !

had a nice day with twinnn <3

TODAY

ahur, okayxzsx, I'M BACK.

YAR, to post one GOOD post with a smiley,
oh well, plans to the bin correct?
so headed to brother's school to buy his bookxzs. oh god.
pathetic manxzs. only three book & his exercise book or whatever,
most of his books were out of stock,
uhkay, then to mine, HOHO, the coast was clear ! then bought uniform too^^,
ah, i don't want to put on the BLUE tie, next year :( hoho.
red is still the best.
uhuhuhuh. then off to upper serangoon shopping centre to get brother's
uniform -.- hes' short yet thinnnn, grow fatter luhxzsxs :P
anddd then, headed for brunch at jalan kayu :O
OMG, i wuvvvv the indian rojak there, its sauce is SUH-WEET. although the peanuts were rather obvious.
argh, then watched brother playing his pokemon !
he was sitting next to me telling me,
"kak, my __ pokemon evolved to ___ after reaching level__"
noisy.
so then headed to hougang mall. OMG. it rained so heavily that
i really think my gladiator sandals are saying goodbye.
:( need it replaced ASAP !
so yar, then POPULAR-ed. weee~
thank god brother got most of his textbooks there, a few more i think
but its rather chicken huh.
ah then reached home, was all so mooody that even mum saw it.
sorry mother, i can't hide my expressions' can't i?
nothing much at home but uhuh, i was feeling, extremely
CRAPPY+SHITTY=MOODY
ahkay, yar, so conclusion, thee feeling sucked.
see people?
don't fucking think because when you think you realise how fucked up everything is.
SO, DON'T THINK.
~~fuck it.~~

and uh, i do not know why,

i miss my scandal !

FAJRINA. yes she.

i need to story telling to her alot of things, :(

and oh!

Congrats to Hyriah ! :D hahas, felt happy for her cause she got promoted to sec 5.

and yay, she'll coach me in science :D

okay, yar.

i don't know why after all the crappy thoughts and stupid arguments, i'm still gonna say this.

GIANT I M.I.S.S YOU!

YOU GET IT?!

Yes i am frigging upset.

and on random note,

and uhm,

why does lady gaga said,

"imma free bitch"

in her bad romance?!

well, it sounds nice after all.

okayxszxs i need to cheer uppppppppppppppppppppppppppp!

Goodbye dodo birds.

and its' the nineteeth today so,

Happy 2nd Month !♥

donuts, can i eat you?

2009-12-18T09:54:00.002+08:00

firstly,

Happy 15th Birthday Muhd Danish :D

RAWR, where do i begin? IF we happen to be in the same class next year,

it'll be four yearxxzs dude. drama president eh! :D

good luck in everything you do dude, (D)

and uhm, i remembered how i used to go crazy calling you CUTE, (cause

he had ADORABLE & CHUBBY cheeks) during sec one, although you

still have them now. and you abhor it so much when i called you CUTE.

and heyyy, your sarcasm kills manxzs ! >:-(

Rock on drama kingggg,

okayxszsxs, enjoy your fifteenth old man ! :D

ARGH,

i've been sneezing like some crazy girl &

its' getting too annoying, even after i swallowed that runny nose tablet.

hate it manxxzsx, i've been thinking,

Syafiq! Grow fasterrrrr, so i can date you out when you groww up ^^

and hes' my eight years' old brother for goodness sake.

what were you thinking? RAWR, if one day my brother grows' up

with the hot look, i'm gonna be frigging jealous if he owns'

a girlfriend. haha, crazy luhxzs :D

hes' coming home today ! RAWR, i miss fighting & arguing with you,

dodo bird.
uh-huh. i'm gonna meet my crazy naughty giant TOMORROW,
eh wait, you sure hor tomorrow you got no plans with your family?
i don't want to get excited for nothing AGAIN.
in any case, i wantttttt to eat DONUTS.
Goodbye

i know you can't stay

2009-12-17T21:07:00.001+08:00

OKAY!

its a, Thursday right?

yar, then tomorrow is friday. and its' saturday

i'll conclude that saturday would be a busy day!

buying bag with twinnn tomorrow ! :D

babe, drop by the library ya? i want to pay fines uhxs. :P

in any case, those pictures' i uploaded were awesome <3

HEH, :D

&&&&&&&&&&&&&

Good Luck To All N Level People Taking Their Results Tomorrow, :D

omg, its mine a year later.

Goodbye

shoes never break up with you

2009-12-16T16:33:00.004+08:00

RAWR! OKAY, this post is specially for EMELYNN ! :D

hee, YAY. i took 2 hours manxzxs ! RAWR. okayxzs had the haircut.

grr, i wanted shorter but uncle said if shorter later cannot tie.

come on! its' not like it won't grow.

NEVERMIND.

i'll cut again when it grows' again.

Goodbye.

the ice is really melting

2009-12-16T11:13:00.000+08:00

you know, internet is being such an asshole.

seriously.

argh, okayxz. i'll story telling to you what happened yesterday.

i went out gift hunting with emelynnc & yweifang !

AWESOME manxzxs. serioussssly.

waited for them at the bus -stop !HOHO.

those aunties were never early :P

then headed to hg mall mrt then down-ed to dhoby ghaut !

Plaza Singapura !

merry-go-round the whole of it, then got what i was looking for.

so, we surveyed other shops, then we got hungry then lunch-ed at burer king ! :D

after which, headed back to the shop &

ZZZ, size S was too small for him, size M was, rather, it looked big.

so settled for M.

then after buying, headed downn RAWR. the travellator (or however you spell it)

i heard somebody called out my name. and guess what!

it was Lim Jia Wei. HAHA, didnt know he worked there.

so yar, disturbed him like crazy, then went off to esplanade. CAMOWHOREEE.

then rain :( grrr.

so in the end, we headed to suntec and wrote on the BIG BIG WHITE ball!

haha, weifang got obsessed with the three chio bu.

omg, girl, you straight right? *winks winks ! :D

then off to plaza singapura again, walked another round, emelynn could not find what she

wanted then go visit jiawei again,

then at the mrt, we saw shairazi's good friend, or best friend, tauyi.

yeahxzs, so then headed to hg mall.

walk walk. saw cyrusxzsxz ! then sent emelynn to her mummy then

bought my oreo chocolate ! :D

gosh, i'm one freak who always forgets to take change.

-.-

wf was like,

"imagine if you give the auntie $50 then you forget take change then just walk off"

RAWR, forgetful luhxzsxsxzs ! then then headed to interchange and we separated !

if you came to my blog to see pictures, i'd rather you to just go straight to my fb! seriously.

i had a hard time uploading. GAH.

sorry weifang :P

CLICK HERE.

uhya, okay. YAY, cutting my hair off today, with the two auntiesxzxs!

i am gonna be BROKE soon. really.

okay, GOODBYE.